Fri Mar 21, 2008 10:32 pm by ahnonnymaus
You mention seeing therapists, but I'm more interested in knowing how long you spoke to them and how often you met. You say they 'didn't help' but I'm not sure what you're expecting. Nothing you do is going to give you instant, magical results. It is a long, hard climb.
I'm in my twenties and I've been dealing with clinical depression since I was 8 years old. Believe it. And even to this day I still struggle with it, but I definitely have the upper hand. It's a combination of therapy, medication, and a lot of effort on my part to change the way I think and live my life.
(ETA: Also, don't forget there are many 'types' of depression. Some are environmental, some are allergies, some are natural chemical imbalances, some are due to past trauma. It's not as well understood as people think it is.)
You're only 17, and believe me, it's very common for teens to be depressed. You're in a transitional stage in your life, and that kind of stress is going to cause trouble in your body and mind. This doesn't make it any less serious, however. It affects your entire world, and in ways you don't always even know. Just because it's common doesn't mean it's not serious.
My recommendation is go to back to therapy and stick it out. Give it a couple of months, but also don't be afraid to switch therapists if it's really not working for you. I went through about 4 before I found one I really clicked with.
If you can, try to find one trained in 'Dilectic Behavioral Therapy', or DBT. That is the behavioral therapy that has really helped me a lot, and lessens the dependancy on medication (I've had plenty of that in my life and I would like to get off of them as much as possible).
As people have posted in this thread, there are lots of different options for you to try to help yourself. Some may work, others may not. Don't get discouraged if 'nothing seems to help'. Trust me, even if you think it's true, you've never tried everything XD
I absolutely do not want to become your therapist, as I am neither trained professionally nor able to commit the time necessary for real therapy, but if you do want some advice from someone who has 'been there' (and in many ways, is 'still there'), feel free to PM me.
(ETA: Oh, and final word of advice!! IT WILL NOT LAST FOREVER. Everything changes, everyONE changes, and what we feel now we won't feel in a day, a week, a month, a year. when I'm in my worst spots I forget this, and I feel devastated. But sometimes I can remind myself, or just cling to belief that this is true, and I just wait it out, and I get through it.)
Never alone.