Cults & Mothers
Posted: Sat Mar 14, 2009 7:40 pm
What is the deal with these mothers who through their children to the wolves, not just Scientology but you see it in polygamist cults and other cults too.
I do not mean all mothers, some are very brave and fight for their children. Or never let their families get in that position to begin with. But so many don't. I don't want to make this a mad rant about my mother, but it so pisses me off. Yes, fathers are to blame too, but I am coming at this from my perspective as a mom.
My mom brought us into the sea org, knowing the deplorable conditions we would be living in. She went to Flag for services when I was 7 and joined the sea org without even checking with my dad. She then perpetuated the lie from the recruiters to him that we would live in a beachside condo and all the kids would go to private school. All the while she knew we would be living in a cockroach ridden motel. Our family of 5 in one motel room. No private school either. She came and got us first while my dad wrapped up our affairs in the UK. Imagine his shock when he arrived weeks later to find how we were living. And my mother's response... "You can go back to the UK, but I'm keeping the kids here".
How, in the blink of an eye, did my mom go from the warm and caring person of my early childhood, to a virtual zombie? The possibility of it scares me.
There are many more stories over the years, like my sister running to my mom in tears at about the age of 12 begging for her help as CMO was trying to get her on the EPF and she didn't want to join the sea org yet. My mother's cold response was that the CMO was above her, there was nothing she could do. When my dad left the sea org, my mother told him he would never see his kids again. When my dad told my sister that he would help her go to college if she wanted to, my mom's response was to keep her from seeing my dad for over a year. Did she have our best interests in mind at any point during this or was she just caught up in the Scientology mania?
Now apparently about a year and a half ago, my mom, brother and grandma were kicked out of the sea org. I hear it is because of the media that I have done about the CofS and how they always try to contact my family for a response. So they are now back in the UK as if nothing happened...seeing my aunt and cousins, I would assume pretending like nothing happened and refusing to discuss anything about me and my sister. Now that the sea org has lost their hold on them, you would think my mom may have woken up to some degree and wondered how her daughters and only grandchild were doing. It seems she may go to her grave blaming us for speaking out about abuse that she knows happened. I hope I am wrong. Despite everything, I would forgive her if she would acknowledge that she failed us.
Now as a child who grew up in Scientology, I can explain very easily how one gets sucked into believing. But I can never, ever explain to anyone how a mother could ignore her instincts to protect her child and through them to the wolves. Knowing as a mom, the lengths I would go to, to protect my daughter and give her a happy life. I do not get it.
I do not mean all mothers, some are very brave and fight for their children. Or never let their families get in that position to begin with. But so many don't. I don't want to make this a mad rant about my mother, but it so pisses me off. Yes, fathers are to blame too, but I am coming at this from my perspective as a mom.
My mom brought us into the sea org, knowing the deplorable conditions we would be living in. She went to Flag for services when I was 7 and joined the sea org without even checking with my dad. She then perpetuated the lie from the recruiters to him that we would live in a beachside condo and all the kids would go to private school. All the while she knew we would be living in a cockroach ridden motel. Our family of 5 in one motel room. No private school either. She came and got us first while my dad wrapped up our affairs in the UK. Imagine his shock when he arrived weeks later to find how we were living. And my mother's response... "You can go back to the UK, but I'm keeping the kids here".
How, in the blink of an eye, did my mom go from the warm and caring person of my early childhood, to a virtual zombie? The possibility of it scares me.
There are many more stories over the years, like my sister running to my mom in tears at about the age of 12 begging for her help as CMO was trying to get her on the EPF and she didn't want to join the sea org yet. My mother's cold response was that the CMO was above her, there was nothing she could do. When my dad left the sea org, my mother told him he would never see his kids again. When my dad told my sister that he would help her go to college if she wanted to, my mom's response was to keep her from seeing my dad for over a year. Did she have our best interests in mind at any point during this or was she just caught up in the Scientology mania?
Now apparently about a year and a half ago, my mom, brother and grandma were kicked out of the sea org. I hear it is because of the media that I have done about the CofS and how they always try to contact my family for a response. So they are now back in the UK as if nothing happened...seeing my aunt and cousins, I would assume pretending like nothing happened and refusing to discuss anything about me and my sister. Now that the sea org has lost their hold on them, you would think my mom may have woken up to some degree and wondered how her daughters and only grandchild were doing. It seems she may go to her grave blaming us for speaking out about abuse that she knows happened. I hope I am wrong. Despite everything, I would forgive her if she would acknowledge that she failed us.
Now as a child who grew up in Scientology, I can explain very easily how one gets sucked into believing. But I can never, ever explain to anyone how a mother could ignore her instincts to protect her child and through them to the wolves. Knowing as a mom, the lengths I would go to, to protect my daughter and give her a happy life. I do not get it.