Hi Sabrina,
Thanks for sharing your story.
I disagree that you don't have a fighting personality, as you got out in the end and I am sure you had to fight, one way or another, to do so. So good for you
I have thought the same thing. I was in the SO for 5 years. From pretty much right after I got off the EPF I was unhappy, yet afraid to say anything. It took me 5 years to work up the courage to leave. I have questioned why I didn't leave earlier and also, if I hadn't gone to my grandma's funeral and seen my family and had a glimpse of the outside world, how much longer I would have stayed? Should I have fought back more, am I too meek and eager to please or afraid to displease? Maybe I was, but from that experience I think I learned that it is okay to stand up for myself, for what I want and what I think is right.