"did you have a win in scientology?" I'm like yes cause if I tell him no then I'm an SP
CherryTree, you can't be an SP because by leaving scientology you had a huge case gain, don't you?
If that classmate pick up scientology with you again you can play games with her, for example: "Do you know why scientology is not expanding like it should? Come and see this interview!" (
http://www.tampabay.com/specials/2009/r ... hbun.shtml ) or tell her you will maybe give Scientology another try when you will see a real OT showing real OT powers! In 50 years scientology has not produced a single OT.
Anyway, I feel sorry for them. They are trained in the idea that they have the right answer for everything already figured out by LRH, and must not look around.
... and I still want to be in touch with my father so this is not an option
That's very nice. If you have something to tell him, do it, write him letters. Use "good roads, good weather" with him. Disconnection is really a punishment. He must abide to it, you don't. He may rationalize thinking "it's the right thing to do" with his "know best" scientology attitude, but if you miss him, he probably miss you too, even if he cannot express it.