Study Tech: Why nobody complains about it
Well, I'll tell you something. What made me leave the SO was the Study Tech and specifically Word Clearing. I hate Study Tech. I've hated it from the very beginning but put up with the BS because I like the rest of the tech. I still do to some extent since I'm technically still on lines. But Study Tech, forget it.
And yet the whole time I was in the SO I never heard anyone complain about it. I was always the only one. To this day I never hear anyone complain about it, not even from people who used to be in Scn. I mean, WTF?
World Clearing is a nightmare. I shudder just thinking about what I went through on M1 (co-audit). That almost screwed me up big time. Almost 7 months wasting time on this crap because I wasn't getting anywhere near a F/N. Towards the end when I started F/Ning, I finally EPed and wrote in my success story, "I had a HUGE EXPLOSIVE win because I finally finished M1 after being on it for months and hating every minute of it but now that I'm done, I feel like I'm exteriorizing all over the place and REALLY glad I'll never have to do this crap again."
Those were my exact words, and this was when I was in the SO, during the first few months and it messed me up so bad that I didn't quite realize what I was writing and that I should've given the lie they were looking for. Needless to say, I landed myself in Ethics and went through a couple of Sec Checks, even though I told them that doing these actions was basically invalidating my win.
The worst part of this was what happened after the Sec Checks. The Sec Checks were nothing compared to this diabolical action. Because they determined that I had a massive and staggering amount of MUs regarding Dianetics and Scientology, I was required to M2 every LRH book that I had ever read up to that point as well as M8 the entire Tech dictionary.
And it gets worse. Even though I was always getting reads like crazy, I knew the definitions for most of the words that were getting reactions on the meter. Going through M1 we practically went through the entire dictionary. Doing M2, the same word would usually get a read even though it had been cleared countless times before!
Eventually I gave up. The first book I had to M2 was DMSMH I routed out halfway through that piece of crap. If I never have to read DMSMH again, it'll be too soon. Because of Word Clearing, I have serious engrams related to Study Tech.
