Thu Jan 29, 2009 6:45 pm
Kristal, your situation has my sympathy and understanding. I wish you luck with it. If you love him and he loves you, things should work out for the best. [knocks on wood]
Like Oderous said, people need a purpose to direct themselves in life. My job and various writings have been my purposes, as has staying in the good graces of myself and my friends. You have been reading my posts on this board, so you know something of my issues. I know much of yours as well. I don't know your husband, though, so I may not be able to offer the best advice. I hope what I can give is enough.
It may help you to discuss with your husband the possible repurcussions for him if he does go back to the CoS. Fanatics such as his former wife are not apt to see his departure and rejoining in the best light. This would be the case even if he gets auditing as opposed to taking courses. Exploring the difficulties which could arise might be beneficial for you both. In my police work, we called this 'visualizing a situation'.
Another idea is for your husband to seek online auditing through the Free Zone or pursue self-auditing through Scientology's books on the subject. He doesn't necessarily have to go directly to them to sort through his problems. I audit myself often on my own concerns, seeking aid from Scientologist friends when I feel it necessary. These people do not help me as official church action and they respect my circumstances and desire to stay outside. Perhaps your husband can find folk of similar sympathies at his Org.
Whatever happens, please do your best to keep your temper and acknowledge his perspective. Be a source of refuge for him, not a 'potential trouble source' (you may need someone more familiar with Scientology's inner workings to fully define that term). I will pray for you both. Good fortune, and if you can, please keep us advised.
