To all Apple School Kids, Teachers, Parents: I'm Sorry
(Sorry this is a bit long--but once I got started, I needed to finish it).
Around that time there was what was called "The Finance Police". They were super Nazi like people---expelling people like mad. I was teaching 2 year olds, and got very upset at all of these people getting declared. I went into OSA to ask why. They had me listen to a "Special Tape that will explain it all" called 'Individuation".
On this tape, Hubbard explained how EVERY executive IS going to commit
"Overts" (or bad deeds) just by the nature of their posts--as you can't please ALL of the people ALL of the time. He also said: "It's up to the public to make SURE these Executives get into Ethics and get their overts off---or they will blow (or quit).
At the time there was this HUGE split in the community, and many people were going up to listen to David Mayo--who of course C of S made sound like he was "Out tech" blah blah blah. I heard Bruce Bishop (Husband of th e wife who ran Apple School) was going to see David Mayo.
I was a super "true Believer"---following everything, so I had Bonnie and Bruce Bishop over to my house, to hear this tape. I thought they'd hear it, realize they needed to go get their overts off, etc. (DUH! )
Ok-----long story short----------OSA, behind the scenes, (and I didn't know of this)--- was doing junk to close down Apple School. They asked me to help, of course pretending they were helping the school and the community.
During this time ---literally it divided the town in half. Half the people left
Scientology, and would call me and tell me how horrible I was. The other half would call and thank me. I truly didn't know if my "Help" was good, or bad. So I finally wrote to Hubbard's Daughter: Diana Hubbard. I explained all that had gone on----and she wrote back:
"My Father would be VERY proud of you".
So I continued. It took me Years and Years and Years to finally wake up.
I woke up in 2000----and escaped out of Scientology, with the Vice President of Scientology out at LAX, telling me: "We know where you're going, and you're NOT going".
Thankfully, I had some friends who were helping me---so I made it across the country, to Chicago where my husband and OSA were---on to Tampa
at 1:45 in the Morning with OSA, some friends, the police, and the 3 new Friends who were helping me, get me out of the Tampa Airport.
So I would like to OFFICIALLY say I am SO very sorry to every single
person that while thinking I was "helping" OSA and doing the right thing, was really screwing up their lives. I've spoken with Bonnie, and many of the Execs from Apple School. They knew way more than I did---about this Junk OSA was running on the school, behind my back.
I know it harmed more people than others---and for some there is no "I'm sorry" that will ever erase the pain they experienced.
All I can say is I did what I thought was good for all. I had no idea
OSA was as evil as I later learned they were. Once I finally did learn
and SEE who they *really* were, I soon after left Scientology,
FOREVER.
I have been speaking out since, helping educate young people so they don't get suckered into Scientology, as well as writing and making videos that hopefully will help others "in" wake up, too.
Blessings to all,
In Scientology for 30 years, escaped out in 2000,
X-Sea Org, X-Staff, X-OT 7, X-Grad 4 auditor, X-OSA volunteer after 20 years, X-Top Secret OSA Int Internet gang. SP 6 ^
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