Well, you are all right!
I mean, trust me, I did take some much needed deprogramming/ destimulating time off, and it was GREAT. I wouldn't have
EVER considered joining another group that was in any way similar to the group I had left, by that I mean regimented. (Shocking though, the military was actually easier and better then the SO, boot camp was one of the easiest things I've ever done)
It is just, that when I left the SO I was told what a horrible spirit I was. I was told repeatedly that I was a degraded being! I was shunned by all my friends (except one) and yelled at, ignored and spit on. I mean, all I have ever wanted to since I was a young child was help others.
I was so invalidated and made to feel like such a low life for leaving such an "Ethical" group, that I somehow started to believe what I was told while routing out. I thought that maybe they were right, that my wanting to be with my parents, finish my education and someday raise a family of my own was all so selfish.
I guess that joining the military and the other volunteering I have done and continue to do is to make amends to mankind since I had hurt them by leaving this elite money grubbing group!
Now I know that they (the "church") were and continue to be wrong! I help others because it is in my nature and I am a good person. LRH even said that man is basically good!
Shame on them for brainwashing me and others into believing otherwise! I am no longer effect from their hold and I am moving on from you people
I am achieving my goals and finally feel free!!!
Wow, that felt really great!!!!!
Thanks for listening,
Evey