TECH outside COS: "Eighth Dynamic Win for a Freezoner."
The Freezoner in question is Ken Urquhart, who for many years
worked directly with L Ron Hubbard.
To let you know:
Today, I discharged my own personal 8th D basic-basic as
regards the set or series of universes which have preceded
and which include this PU of ours.
Until this moment, I had been "existing over an arcx" as well
as over listing errors (including wrong indications, altered
importances) , and a painfully wrong condition indication. This
bundle of charge made up the basic-basic of the chain of
my negative experiences in this sector of existence. I have
been *very* bitter about the whole incident and its
consequences.
I felt these outnesses keenly all through my present life in every
aspect, but could not resolve them. I was withholding that I *had*
them, since they were very real but had nothing to do with any
person or situation that I was relating with in p.t. -- if expressed,
my charge would have brought about only an overt product. [And,
in fact, it has on many an occasion, regardless of my tightness
(or because of it). Yes, there have been times when my charge
took charge and ran away with my discretion and ethics. Far
too many times, in fact.]
Having looked at the events of that time and having resolved the
entheta charge, I can look at the events simply as something
that happened. I can let go of my very hard and bitter feelings
against those who "let me down," (and they did, indeed, let me
and everybody else involved, down). I can regard those beings
now as simply mistaken and curtail any evaluation of their
motivation or intelligence. Who cares about that, now?
Part of the difficulty was my awareness that the arc-xenness
that I was experiencing, and the complainingness that I was
wont to keep feeling inexplicably, are both indications of
underlying mwh's. Nobody should be so sassy as to say he
has no mwh's, but I have established to my own satisfaction
that my situation did not involve either mwh's or 'similar overts
of my own.' At the core it was simply a matter of violations by
another, in ignorance, of my deepest personal codes in a very covert,
unexpected, sudden, and brutally shocking way that, to use the
common English vulgarity, had my knickers all twisted up; they
have been keeping me extremely uncomfortable ever since. Now
they are straightened out again, and I feel quite comfortable in my
knickers.
One of the things that held it all in place was my *super-solid*
postulate that I was going to get hold of the bugger that done
it to me, and make it very, very real to him exactly what he
done, who and what he is, and just who and what he done it to.
Finding him and getting *his* ethics in became as obsession.
Well, if I meet him now, I'll have an interesting conversation with
him, and we'll compare experiences. Fine by me if we become
friends, fine if we each go our separate ways. [In fact, we are all
going the same way: to Truth. There is, thank God, an infinity of
approaches to Truth.]
I'm grateful for ALL that I have learned, and most grateful for the
chance to learn the lessons of that one experience, to bring
myself to understanding -- and relief. So what, that it took me
eons and eons, through universe after universe? I *made* it.
So, a red-letter day!
An interesting side-light on this is that apart from using an initial
approach that is not (so far as I know) part of mainstream
scientology (if part of it at all), the rest of what I did in solo
session consisted of a very basic, elementary, and most
"standard" action.
What I did could have been, in theory, addressed through
the standard application of NED. Of course, I came up
through scientology auditing before the days of NED, and,
indeed, before there was the concept of a standard bridge.
But I tend to think that even if I had had lots of very
standard NED, the charge I just handled was so huge
that it would not have been available for NED or for any
other level. It simply took me this long and all these
different levels to unburden it.
No matter what anyone can say about LRH, or what I might
say myself about what I have perceived about his failings, it
was he who opened the door for me to follow the path that
has led to this place. For the entirety of the rest of my
existence, whether that be finite or in eternity, he will always
have my heartfelt gratitude and highest respect for being,
when it mattered most, my very best friend in all of existence.
Without his work, I was self-sentenced to the endurance of
nothing but very miserable lives for a horribly long time.
I * thank* Ron for his work.
Would I like others to have similar gains to mine? I don't know
what applies best to any other being. The 8th D is intensely
personal and individual (in my opinion). Would I be happy for
another to feel as happy as I do? You bet. I want all beings
to be happy about their existence as 8th Dynamics. I want
each and every one to know his or her wholeness in Truth.
Love to you, and to all,
Ken
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